I’m always doing something. I don’t ever have any moments where I’m not doing “something”.
I’ve been feeling pretty off lately. The people around me have taken notice too. I don’t really know how to pinpoint it and what’s wrong.
I’m just not in a good mood. I’m tired of everything and I just want to take a step back from everything. The only problem is I’m not hardwired to be able to step back from anything. I’m hardwired to just start doing more.
I know I have stuff to do so I do it and don’t stop until it’s done. Feeling like this makes it so unbelievably hard though. I’ve written three different posts today but I just didn’t like them. I’ll post them eventually I just don’t like them at this moment. They’re good work I just can’t seem to like them.
I’ve noticed something about my writing that I really need to work on. I start writing about something but a lot of the times it turns into something else. I don’t want to put out a product that’s confusing on what I’m supposed to be talking about.
I don’t feel right to begin with and it’s just frustrating. I don’t really know what to do about it. I went to go do something with someone and immediately canceled. I put time aside specifically for them after I’d been working on stuff all day. I just couldn’t bring myself to do anything though. I was on the phone asking what we wanted to do and once we agreed I changed my mind. I don’t have it in me to do anything today.
So, I went back to work. That’s what I do when I’m like this. I shut out everyone and everything and just continue on with my work. I surround myself with my projects and work, watching as life passes by.
I just don’t feel like doing anything today. I want to do something but I most likely won’t. I’ll just sit here and keep working. If I’m not being productive in my life at least I’m being productive in my work, right?